Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Big things!

Where to begin? 

Oh how about with... I'm 16 weeks pregnant! We found out super early (at 3 weeks) and I was feeling great until about 5-6 weeks. I started having some bad pains and went into the ER. They ran all kinds of tests and kept me for hours and finally said it was a cyst causing the pain and that my pregnancy wasn't going to make it. They said I had 3 gestational sacs but no fetal poles or heartbeats. 

Well they were wrong. 

About a week later (on Valentine's Day) I was able to get in with an OB and they found heartbeats. Yes, you read right, heartbeats. Three to be exact. TRIPLETS. I was shocked and not very excited to say the least. I went into somewhat of a depression for the next couple weeks trying to cope with this news. I got very sick and couldn't keep much of anything down, lost 4 lbs and was just out of it completely. My Mom came and stayed for those weeks to help with Bailey and keeping my house running. 

I have slowly come around to the idea and I am doing MUCH better now. I don't know why I had SUCH a hard time with this news but it was just something I never expected and all that I could see in my future was never leaving my house alone with my FOUR kids under age 3 and having to have a quad stroller to go anywhere, having to buy two new vehicles just so we can all fit and the financial side of things and I just kept getting myself more and more stressed and scared. I was also very scared about the pregnancy and delivery and what it will do to my body and also the babies. I was told everything that can go wrong at my first OB visit and google is not always your friend in these situations so scared didn't even come close to how I was feeling. 

I definitely cannot say that I am not still scared and overwhelmed about this but I am doing I would say a good 90% better! I still have my freak out moments/days but I know it will all work out and everything will be fine. Life is about to change BIG time! I have closed Designs By Alex and do not know if or when I will reopen and I am just trying to enjoy every moment with Bailey as my only child before our family of 3 becomes a family of 6!

 Just this week I have started looking at nursery ideas and have started to get excited! We will find out the sexes in a couple weeks and then the real planning begins! My feeling is it is 2 girls and 1 boy or 3 girls. Eek! We will see! Can you imagine 4 girls!!?? I can but it would be fun to have a boy in the family! 

The next big tasks- Name picking and nursery designing! Both fun but not easy!

These were our announcement photos taken in February.  

I would love to say that I will blog often and document everything well but we all know I won't so I won't say it! I want to try though because this is such a nice way to look back at evrything!